Archive for October, 2010

of regret.  Pictures of moments from the past that appear before me at night to torment.  At first they seduce me with happy memories so that my heart is already caught up in looking, then they turn to the ugly – the seconds in time I’d rather not re-live, that I wish I could change.  Soaking in these scenes replaying in my mind causes my heart to drop into discontent, into self-loathing, into guilt…and part of me gives up.  After sleep finally comes and the sun arises, I find I am partly immobilized.  Is this like Lot’s wife looking back and being turned into a pillar of salt?  Is that what the lesson is…regret keeps you from moving forward so be careful how you look back…

The movement inspired by these thoughts is danced by Dana Thomas.

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